Diary, life, mental health, Uncategorized

Facing the big bad world

After months and months of stressing, I’m finally in a good place and I couldn’t be happier!

I officially move into my new cute studio flat on Friday 24th and I’ve started a second job which I’ve only done one shift and I love it already.

This will be the first time I will be living all by myself and I’m so excited but so nervous at the same time. I have my little minions helping me move but with only a week to go, I need to get packing! (and cleaning since my friends and I thought it would be a good idea to have a talcum powder fight, oops)

It just feels like yesterday I went to view this flat and being all nervous about not getting it and this was about 90 days ago. I’m sat here typing about not having anything packed and I have a week to go pretty much!

I got myself a cute little bar/waiting job at a lovely quirky restaurant/bar/cafe near my flat. Lovely atmosphere, amazing team of people and such friendly regulars. I honestly can say I’m going to enjoy going to work and will most likely be spending all my free time there when I’m not vlogging there.

As for the anxiety front, yes its still there and yes I still feel like I’m on edge but you know what? I will not let that bother me. The more I think about it, the more it affect my everyday life and the way people see me. I don’t want to be seen as the awkward closed off girl because I can’t talk due to my social anxiety. I want to be the fun, bubbly outgoing girly that I am.

Of course I’m going to have days where my bed feels like the safest place in the world but if I keep thinking that way, its never going to change! The people I have in my life want to see me achieve and be the best I can be. They never stop trying to help me and keep my active on my worst days. I couldn’t be more thankful for the amazing support group I have!

Which leads me onto my next step with my YouTube world. I want to do an advice section on anything which may be affecting others. I’ve been told that I am one of the best people to talk to about problems by my friends because I keep an open mind and always have wacky ideas to brighten the mood. I just need topics now and this is what I’m going to be filming and uploading over the upcoming months! Hopefully you guys can give me some ideas!

So heres to the next step of my life, lets gooooo!

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