Beginning of December I wrote a blog post about how my anxiety and stress had taken over my life. Well! We are here in the middle of May and the changes I have been through over the last 5 months have been horrifically stressful for me. Did I let this stop me? Not at all.
Change is a major trigger for my anxiety and I have been learning to embrace it and think ‘everything happens for a reason’. When I look back over the last couple of months, I have changed into a more confident person and grown too. Speaking of change, I have moved flat, lost friends, found someone to share all the good&bad times with plus a part time job to help me pay the bills.
Moving out from a flat which had SO many memories was a hard thing to do. I had spent nights crying with laughter, talcum powder fights and food fights with 2 of my closest best friends going. We all said good bye to the old flat in our own ways. Every cloud has a silver lining as no longer feel sad about the old flat due to all the bad memories it held to, but here’s to moving forward.
Blaming myself and putting myself down was one of my bad habits which made me spiral and made me more self conscious. As soon as I made the decision to stop caring about what others things and if something goes bad it happened for a reason, I picked my sorry bum up off the floor. I am now bursting with self confidence, I am 10000% happy with my life and I don’t let anything get me down anymore.
Getting a part time job as a front of house member has been one of the best decisions of my life. Not only are the team of people I work with so cheerful and bonkers just like me, the regulars and all the other customers never fail to brighten my day. I always leave my shift at the end of day so happy and more bubbly.
My friends have always been a strong part in keeping myself happy and not falling back down the rabbit hole and I can not thank them enough. My best friend Ellen has started her own blog as she goes through similar problems to myself. We help each other through all the bad days when we just feel like nothing is going right. I can’t thank her enough for all the support over the last few months.
Same with my other half Gareth. Even though he is a massive pain in the bum, he never fails to make laugh and smile through the tough times. We will sit for hours if need be until I tell him what’s bothering me and for that, I am forever grateful.
Recently, I lost my greatnan and it was a really tough time since I live down south and she was in Newcastle. I would talk to Ellen about everything that I felt and she was always a message away telling me how much my nan was proud of me and how much she loved me. Same as Gareth, we’d just sit in silence with me crying until I got it all out my system and then he would be his normal goofball self until I was happier again.
Everyone just needs a little bit of a boost now and then. If you are reading this and you have been suffering for the same things I have or just need someone to chat to – please come find me on any of my social media which is linked in the menu bar. All I want to do is help others find the right path and feel better about themselves
Until next time, Lauren x